hello everyone

i hope you all had a wonderful fourth of july!

my summer has not been all that exciting.

i am finally finished with all of the weddings i had to go to this summer, so now i just have to work my summer away, but at least i will finally get to work on building my bank account back up from the depths.

the doctors diagnosed my mom with having lupus, so she is going to be treated for that, they said she will take about two years to be back to normal. They said that if her eyesight doesnt get better she may need to get chemotherepy since they cannot find anything physically wrong with her eyes....hopefully they will get better...

i ended up buying all 3 of those shirts...my mom is such a bad influence when it comes to buying stuff..i swear... 

instead of getting money to pay off loans in november from my parents my parents are going to officially buy me my jeep since it is only a lease right now (i do have the option of getting a different car but i dont think i need a different car).

I finally applied for my student loan today, but i have to wait to find out if it has been approved. I really hope it gets approved because it is SO frustrating waiting to find out. i applied for $20,000 ans hopefully asu will approve more than last year since i didnt get one of my other loans, because i dont want to get a job if i dont have to and i also want to try to put some money in savings to a. have to pay for summer school and if it is possible b. just to have for the future (like to save for my wedding (dont worrt there are no plans that i know of), or for a car or for a house...stuff like that if i can).

 i think i am pretty ready to start school again, probably because i am kind of tired of work. i feel like all i do is wake up, go to work, come home, and go to sleep, then repeat. there is also SO MUCH DRAMA going on at work, i swear i feel like i am in middle school....no scratch that...middle school wasnt nearly this dramatic....the only thing that keeps me excited about work is the Breaking Dawn Midnight Release Party which i will admit has caused me some stress itself...lol...I JUST WANT IT TO BE AUGUST FIRST ALREADY SO IT CAN BE HERE AND IT CAN BE ALMOST OVER!..lol i just want the freakin book..lol

so yeah, i am trying to figure out when my last day of work will be, but i DO have an eye doctor's appointment on august 6th and i believe i am getting contacts again! i know they can be a waste of money sometimes but i wont buy a ton to start with until i know how my migraines will react to them.

umm...i dont think i have anything else to say so...i am going to go now, i am going to go clean my room

love you all!!

d

Ok, so here is the car that my father just bought himself that i am SUPER EXCITED ABOUT!! 







ok, i also have more good news. I know i have mentioned that we are having a midnight release for Breaking Dawn, the fourth book the twilight series. well...MY MANAGER MADE ME IN CHARGE OF THE ENTIRE EVENT. I GET TO PLAN THE ENTIRE EVENT!  they re going to get me the details of things that i HAVE to include and some specifics then i get to plan the rest!!


that is all for now!! If you have read the books, and have any ideas for the event let me know!!

love you all!!

Hannah says i should let you choose the next 2 shirts i buy....i think i know which i am getting, but i figure i might as well let you vote since it will just mainly be like 5 people looking at this anyway..lol

here are the options:

A:

"and so the lion fell in love with the lamb"

 B:
"Team Edward: Because I'm waiting for my lullaby"


C:  

"Who needs Prince Charming? When you can have Edward Cullen"

 

SOOOO...it has been a while since my last update :)

i am supposed to be cleaning and applying for loans for next year but i would much prefer to be here posting an entry :)

Since my last entry, ony of my best friends Miss Amanda Lowe became Mrs. Amanda Schulze :)!!!
   Congrats to the lovely bride and groom.

Nothing really has been going on in my world besides that, as far as fun and exciting goes. i finished re-reading all of the twilight books and highlighting the quotes :) 

I finally saw lily last night and while i was showing her pictures from Amanda's wedding a picture of Meghan holding the wedding rings came up and all of a sudden, out of no where Hayden goes "Dayyyyyuuuum", (like when guys say damn) it was hilarious, i almost died laughing, Lily couldnt believe it, he wouldnt repeat it though.


on a less happy note, my mom went to johns hopkins university today so they could finally figure out what is wrong with her after being sick for two years. I think we are all sick of the guess and check method so hopefully they will know what it is and cure it, or at least start on a better path there than they were on here. I jsut ask that you all keep my mom in your thoughts, i would greatly appreciate it :).


on a MUCH HAPPIER NOTE
i had ordered some twilight gear for myself to wear, all the time and for the midnight release of Breaking Dawn on August 2nd! AND I CAME TODAY!!!!! here is a look of what i got:


  <~ this is the design of the shirt, i couldnt get a good picture of the shirt from the site

when i get my stimulus check (or just my next paycheck) i am going to get 2 or 3 more shirts cause I LOVE THEM!! I was so excited when they came that only a few things could have made me happier as i stated in my away message: 

1. if my future husband showed up at my front door
2. if a copy of breaking dawn showed up at my front door
3. if my stimulus check had come (it didnt)
4. if the movie for twilight had come out today instead of in december and instead of going to work i got to go see it for free
or
5. if my mom was all better and could come home today

or 6. the other 3 shirts that i am waiting to buy came with these 2 FOR FREE...that would have been cool

and if that doesnt get you smiling these should:
......well at least i am smiling

have a good day

hello my dear friends i hope you all are doing well i figured i would hop on here and update a little on my life (since it is my journal after all..lol) HANNAH"S B_DAY WAS YESTERDAY SO YOU ALL BETTER HAVE WISHED HER A HAPPY B-DAY!!!!!!! Hannah i hope your birthday kicked some ass!! I have finished reading Twilight (which i think i already told you) (i also finished re-reaing it) i finished reading New Moon (the sequel) (and am about halfway through re-reading it) and have finished reading Eclipse (the sequel to New Moon)...and not to worry i am still obcessed...cant wait till august 2nd for Breaking Dawn!! Here is my work schedule for this week and next (it is subject to change but here it is as of now: 6/11: 12pm-9pm 6/12: 12pm-3pm 6/13: 12pm-9pm 6/14: 12pm-9pm 6/15: 11am-7pm 6/16: 12pm-9pm 6/17: 8am-4pm 6/18: off for Amanda's wedding rehersal 6/19: off for Amanda's wedding!! 6/20: 9am-1pm 6/21: 8:30am-4pm WOW..I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT AMANDA"S WEDDING IS ALMOST HERE ALREADY!! speaking of weddings, my sister's wedding was on the 6th and it was pretty kick ass! here are some pictures and the 2 videos of their awesome first dance you need to watch both and you have to watch them in order to get the full effect! (sorry the lj cut wouldnt work for my pictures for some reason :( well i think that is all i have for today i should probably start getting ready for my LOOOOOONG day at work love you all!! D* * *

well...

not much has really been going on in my life

i haven't made the decision about curves yet cause i have been working non-stop

i finished readinf lock and key and as all of sarah dessen books i loved it!

BUT I FELL IN LOVE WITH AND BECAME TOTALLY OBCESSED WITH TWILIGHT BY STEPHANIE MEYER, i am in the middle of re-reading it now then i am going to start on the second book (new moon) and then start the 3rd (eclipse) then August 2nd the 4th one comes out (breaking dawn) !! i know i am going to have the other 2 read way before the 4th comes out and the wait will be excriciating, but in the mean time the first movie will come out December 12th and i am SUPER EXCITED... I cannot believe how fast i became addicted...by the end of the second chapter i could not seperate myself from the book, if i was not reading it, i was thinking about it. I was shocked since i am really not one for fantasy books, but now i am love with a fictional vampire..lol..which also means i will probably die old and lonley because he, like so many boys i have fallen for, only lives in a book. I highly recommend this book!!

I am leaving tomorrow for NY!! I cannot believe my sisters wedding is already here! saturday is the bachelorette party (that i feel is going to be very uncomfortable for me, since strip clubs arent really my thing) but i have like $50 in singles for that event..lol, then i have the cutest dress for the rehersal dinner (which i will probably wear to amanda's too because i love it so much..i wore it today just walking around the house cause i could) then a week from tomorrow is the wedding!! i am having some issues picking out how i want my hair though so i am going to spend tonight trying to figure that out.

I plan on taking a bunch of pictures while i am there so i am sure my photo count will jump rapidly :) i dont know how many i will get at the actual wedding though, i will try to get some though..maybe mom can take some :)

since i have nothing of importance or significance to update about...i should probably go pack or pick a hairstyle

I'm Nate.
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HA HA I COULD HAVE TOLD YOU THAT!!

i so saw myself as nate(not completely, but personality wise)

i will update again in a little bit i am going to finish going through my friends page first

ugh...i really need to loose weight

it is really ridiculus how many times i have said that and it has yet to happen

i NEED it to happen

not want NEED

i stopped in at curves on my way home from the doctor(who told me i need to excercise NO KIDDING! she was trying to be nice about it...i didnt get mad when she said it..she said it would help with my back hurting..lol) and i am thinking about doing that...i mean it is like $40 a month i think, and if i do a whole year thing it is like a one time $70 plus $30 a month or something like that..but idk...i dont really have a ton of money to waste on something that may not even work
i have a free week pass (and one for a friend if anyone wants to come) so i think that either next week (3 days after work) or the week after the wedding i will go try it and see if i like it...if i finish cleaning today and am really in the mood to check it out i may just go back later today.

i really just need someone to yell at me when i eat bad food and to force me to excercise and to stick with it... i should just join the freakin army..lol..NOT i would die..the second someone yelled at me i would bust out crying...

i just need to go to fat camp... too bad those places are like...MAD EXPENSIVE!

i need to win the lottery so i can pay someone to be mean to me all the time and make me loose a ton of weight

that is my only goal right now..lol

well..i am going to go FINALLY finish cleaning my room, if i have time i am going to work out a little on the eliptical machine downstairs, shower, go pick up my dress at davids bridal and hear the freakin tailor tell me how big my ass is again

then i have to come back here and fold a mountain of laundry
and then i can READ!!

i bought the book Twilight by Stephanie Meyer since everyone keeps telling me that i would like it so after i finish Lock and Key i will start reading that. I will let you know how it is.

HAVE A GOOD DAY!!

p.s. have any of you heard the song stand up by Neverset? I swear it would be the perfect song for a commercial for the last Harry Potter movie..lol..here are the lyrics: 

(that subject is from meet the robinsons which is on right now)

hello everyone!

i am sure most of you don't care but i like to update about whatever comes into my mind at the moment, and right now i am thinking about my trip to the neurologist.

first off, have you ever wondered what the point in making an appointment for one time like i had an appt at 9am and i got there early and was taken to a room fairly shortly, but i was able to read an entire chapter of a book waiting on the dr to come in, and that was with me stoping once in a while to decide whether i should keep reading or stop. why didnt they just make my appointment for like 9:30 if that was going to be when i was going to be seen?

anyway, so i went to the neurologist and he examined me and talked to me for a little while then told me this:

1. i do NOT have pseudotumor cerebri because the spinal pressure test was not accurate, by being curled up in the fetal position you are not relaxing and that makes your pressure rise. AND because my eyes show no signs of it.
2. These migraines are just my normal migraines not anything huge i should be worried about
3. I have to stop ALL of the meds i am currently taking for my migraines
4. i have to take Topamax everyday (gradually build up to the dosage perscribed) and 3 other meds when i actually get the migraines.
5. I should try to be consistant with my sleeping pattern and my excercise, i should try to go to sleep at the same time and wake up at the same time everyday (not possible with my always changing schedule) but the excercise will help me prevent migraines.

so i still have to go to the eye doctor like 2 more times- once for another field of vision test and once for my normal eye exam (well then one more time to pick up my glasses and/or contacts

I have to go to a followup at the neurologist after the wedding (my sisters)

i have a followup at MY doctor on the 23rd. (the same day i go to pick up my dress from davids bridal!)

the neurologist was pretty funny about my pills, he was like, "the stuff you are on now have some bad side effects like weight gain and sluggishness but the topomax has much more amusing and fun side effects, like all carbonated beverages tasting funny, some tingly fingers and toes, and weight loss- that one is always the selling point!"

so i am going to relax for a bit, figure out what days i have to ask off for due to my many appointments and then make a sandwich for dinner and put some fruit together to go with my sandwich then get ready for work 4-11:45

have a super-duper day!!

hello everyone

i hope you have all done well on your exams, or will do well on your exams

this semester ended for me and my grades were pretty good 2 A's, 2 A-'s and 2 B's, kinda noah's arc-ish isn't it? 2 of each..lol

i went to the eye doctor and they tested my field of vision (which is something they did on the last House which i found quite ironic) and tested me for color blindness(which i am not), they tested the pressure in my eyes, and checked some disc's behind my eyes. he said that he doesnt think that i have the pseudotumor cerebri thing because my eyes seem fine, and he would be more worried if the opening pressure was around 100 instead of just 36. But he would like me to come back on the 13th of june for another field of vision test (for reasons i do not know. seems kinda stupid, especially since i have to go in august for my normal eye exam).

So after that i went to the normal doctor (marlette not miller since dr. miller is on vacation) and she checked all my nerves and did all these funky tests like making me walk a straight line and touching certain fingers to my nose and whatnot. She said that i looked ok but she wants me to see a neurologist and to get an M.R.I. just to make sure that my brain looks good. She also wanted me to stop my birth control pills (since i dont use them for birth control anyway) to see if that helps with my migraines, she also is keeping me on the diamox which is the stuff for the pseudotumor cerebri because she wants the neurologist to make the final call on that and since i have not had a migraine since i started taking it.

The bad storms here have been CRAZY! on thursday night (was it thursday?) the lightning was insane it looked like there was a battle about whether it was night or day going on, and then we lost power from like 4am to 5pm..which is nuts, we had a generator though so we were able to run the fridge and tv/dvd player. We also lost power for like 30 minutes yesterday.

I started working again, it has been kinda fun.

Lily had to go to the hospital a few days ago, she had a UTI that spread to her kidneys but she was home the next day, but her dad had a stroke the other day, he is in the ICU, hopefully he will be able to come home soon, so just keep them in your thoughts and prayers. Mitch came home though! and Lily got a job at Truliant bank, which is exciting for her!!

i dont think that i have more to say.

so i am going to go

toodles!

d :)

Well this entry is going to be a little different than my normal entries

what makes this one different is i actually have something to write about

yesterday i got the worst migraine of my entire life at about 6pm
I tried taking my pills and using my heating pad but nothing worked by 7pm i thought i was going to die because it hurt so bad, i felt like i had so much pressure in my skull that it was going to crack.

I decided, with help of my mother, that i needed to go to the hospital. My next problem was that i was the only one in my apartment. so at 7:09 i called Meghan and asked if someone over there could take me to the hospital and thankfully this guy she was studying with someone who drove me there. When we got there Jessica and Brittani were already there. Meghan had filled Hannah in and she was finding someone to fill in for her at work and then drove over to the hospital.

some of the questions they ask on the form they make you fill out are hilarious, even with all of the pain i couldnt help but laugh, they asked me where i worked, what my mother's maiden name was, and (my personal favorite) my religious preferences..ahh good times good times.

they took me back fairly fast and after we got there, examined me then took me to a room, Meghan cam with me

the doctor examined me then had them start an IV and take some blood for tests and they gave me a shot of phenegrin, some saline(to push it down) and some benedryll (for i dont know what)

they sent me for a head CT to check for tumors, thank God there were none and it looked normal

my tests came back normal too

the doctor came in to tell me all this then told me she had something really serious to talk about, she told me that a big thing they worry about when someone comes in with a migraine that hit out of no where that is this intense and is not like any migraine they have ever had they worry about cerebral hemorages (at this point i freaked out) and then she told me that the only way she could test for it would be to do a lumbar puncture (if i was freaking out before, i completely lost it here) i asked if i could wait for my dad and Hannah called my mom.

My mom didnt want me to have the procedure but she spoke to the dr, then called dr. miller and she spoke to the doctor and they all decided i was having it, but they said i could wait for my dad.

at this point my head hurt SO bad that it hurt to touch my head, lean my head on my pillow, lay a facecloth over my eyes, squeeze my eyes shut in pain, my teeth hurt, my eyes hurt, my ears hurt and was scared making all of this a million times worse.

my dad came and Hannah left to go back to the apartment.
About 20 minutes later they were getting ready to do the procedure. I started feeling really sick so they gave me another anti-nausea shot, had me take my capri's off and preped me for the procedure.

in order for them to do this i had to curl up in the fetal position as much as i could, curving out my spine as much as possible so the bones would be as far apart as possible and i was not allowed to move. me being terrified of needles, i was so scared and unhappy about this procedure that i was crying and shaking, i knew i had to calm down but knowing that they were about to stick an epidural size needle into my spinal chord i could not become calm. My dad started feeling sick so he had to leave (poor dad).
they washed my back and felt around pushing really hard for the place that they needed to stick me then stuck me a bunch of times with a needle filled with stuff that numbed my skin, i hate that stuff it burns really bad

i cannot even describe to you what the lumbar puncture felt like, all i can say is it is the worst and most unusual pain i have ever felt. the doctor could tell i was freaking out so to try and relax me she had asked me what i like to do (she asked me before the actual procedure while the numbing stuff was kicking in) so during the puncture she kept telling me to think about my favorite book and pretend i was reading it. So i tried, i still felt the pain but i tried to think about about the scene in The Truth About Forever where Wes comes into the library and the other girls working there were telling him that Macy couldnt answer his question because she was new and then after a while he asked them the question, it was about where something was put when they packed up the catering stuff the night before and the girls felt so stupid. then Macy answered and Wes told her that he wished she could come help with the catering that day and after thinking about it she jumps over the desk and leaves with him. it did help calm me a little but like i said, i still felt the pain

they took the fluid and i had to lay on my back for half an hour and they gave me a shot of morphine.

the doctor came in half hour or so later and told me that there was no blood in the fluid so it is not a hemorage and the tests were all normal on the fluid BUT they always test the opening pressure when they do this procedure and mine came out to be about 36, the pressure is only supposed to be about 20. This made her think that i have this thing called pseudotumor cerebri which does NOT mean i have a tumor. it means that my brain is producing too much spinal fluid causing too much pressure. This could also be the reason that I get so many migraines.

in order to diagnose it i have to go to the eye doctor and have them check for elevated discs behind my eyes. she gave me the medication that i would have to take if i do have it so i alread started taking it. it is weird cause it makes my fingers tingle.

my back was still hurting and the pain in my head moved from a 10 to a 5 so they gave me one more shot of morphine and let me leave.

that was at about 12ish

my dad took me to walgreens to get my perscription adn he bought me some some fruitloops and milk and granola bars since i have to eat with my pills(to help prevent and reduce the tingles)

then he took me back to my apartment and left to go home.

SO...i feel much better now, the fluid they took out reduced some of the pressure
my back hurts from the lumbar puncture so i have to try to either sit up straight or lay down. i cant really bend over or pick up anything heavy. they dont want me driving so i will have to take the bus or something on tuesday to make up my bio exam that i couldnt go to today. then my brother and dad are going to come and pick me up to come home for the summer. I am about to e-mail work to let them know what happened just in case i have to start working later than planned.

but for the most part i am ok, i know i dont have any tumors in my brain or a brain hemorage and hey, the pills i am on reduce my appetite, i could only eat half of my sandwich and i had to force down my broccoli cheddar bites (which were freakin awesome!)
mom says my back will start feeling better soon, i just have to try and take it easy.

i know i have said it a million times to the people this is directed towards but i cannot say thank you enough to all of you, i am so thankful for having such amazing friends. I love you guys!

well i better get going on that e-mail i may just end up calling them cause it is much simpler..lol

i hope you all are doing great!

hello everyone

just a quick entry before i finally clean my room

I AM WORKING ON MY STORY AGAIN!! aren't you proud

i am about halfway through the 4th chapter so when i finish writing it i will let you know and post it under  storyskribbler

if you are not friends with storyskribbler you will have to be added as a friend to read it cause i post them as friends only.

i really hope to have a lot of this story finished by the end of summer!

let me know if you need to be added to storyskribbler!

I can't believe that Hayden is two!!

hello everyone!

i dont really have too much to say today but i felt like updating so that this exaxt day next year i can say my life is more exciting than it is today..lol...hopefully 

lent is over..obviously...so i splurged on ice cream..which i do not plan on eating very often because i have decided to go back to my dieting and working out..which sucks in a way cause i have a bunch of chocolate chip cookies left..but if i eat them i will only eat the serving size

....i started today..i walked on the treadmill at a fairly fast pace uphill a bit for 30 minutes, which was only like 1.6 miles but that is ok with me..then rested for like 3 minutes then was on one of the bicycles for like 10 minutes then came back to the apartment to so a few push-ups (which i royally suck at) and a few sit ups (which i more than royally suck at) then decided i was done for the day.

 I am going to be drinking LOTS of water..not that i really drink anything else..lol..and i am going to watch what i eat...

aren't you proud? 
NO?
 ok well what if i tell you i am just doing this for me, not to impress anyone else but so i can be healthier mentally and physically?
 now are you proud? 
NOO???!!?? 
well you are just hard to please arent you?..lol 

i really hope i can keep to a healthy lifestyle and loose some lbs because i think i will like myself more and i have decided that i like myself better already with my motivation...i just really hope it lasts..i feel so great right now after working out (well...after taking a shower after working out..lol)

i started to think about the summer and how i wont have the groovy little workout room since i will be home, so i think i am going to maybe join curves, and on days i can get there i am going to jsut work out on the eliptical machine my brother bought

i am also going to try to use my motivation to keep my room clean (i know i say this all the time) but i really want it this time i want a new me..and i am going to work towards that all i can.. i plan on getting ahead on my homework this weekend (well today and tomorrow) so the rest of this semester can finish as close to being stress free as possible.

sweeny todd comes out on tuesday!! i am super excited!
Amanda turns 20 on wednesday!!
Hayden turns 2 on the 6th!

I take the praxis on the 4th...gross..lol

i register for classes on the 7th at 9am!

LOCK AND KEY (Sarah Dessen's new book) COMES OUT ON THE 22nd!!!!!

THE LAST DAY OF CLASSES IS THE 30th!!

man i have a lot to look forward to! not to mention the 3 weddings this summer (my sister, Amanda, and my cousin!) (they arent all marrying eachother btw..lol)

i look forward to buying smaller clothes more than any of this (ok maybe i look forward to Lock and Key a bit more...lol)

well that is all

love you all

Well hello all of you lovely people in livejournal land!

i hope you all are doing well, and i hope you had a happy easter!!

i am just kinda bored getting ready to look through a Praxis prep book i bought at borders today for like $15

My sister's bridal shower came and went, she had fun so that was awesome

i finished reading Harry Potter FINALLY! but i am sad it is over cause now i have to choose what to read..there isnt a next book..lol

I saw hayden and lily yesterday and they are doing great! Hayden was singing random parts of the karaoke songs like "you're never gonna keep me down" and 'ice ice baby" and "Stop Hammer Time" it was adorable!! I think we are hanging out later today (maybe) so that will be cool.

my sister and john were here for easter..it was fun to hang out with them.

i got the papers i have to sign to get my tax return and there was a tab marking where my spouse needs to sign his name and pin number, i told my mom to ask my accountant who my spouse is so i can find him and get him to sign the paper..lol

i found out that in november when my dad is able to cash out his king kullen stock they are going to give us all some money to help pay for student loans..i thought that was awesome. Since i wont ahve much interest that i can pay i plan to pay what i can, get a new laptop(not that i need one yet but i DO need power point) then put the rest in a savings account so i can earn a little more money on it to use on my loans later on.

my migraines have been comming once or twice a week again..i think i will eventually have to be put on new or more medication for them but my dr. is still on maternity leave so it will have to wait till then unless it gets REALLY bad which i am not sure i can handle much worse.

i was looking over my class schedule and plans for the next two years and found out that neither of the 2 math classes i have to take are being offered in the fall and i will have 17hrs in the spring so i will have to take it in the summer next year..that kinda sucks,, but it is either that or graduate a semester late. So i will now be taking 15 hours next semester then my block 1 classes (11 hours) and one other class (4 hours) in the spring, 2 summer classes (6hrs) then block 2 (16 hours?) in the next fall then student teaching and then i will be off into the real world which is pretty scary but i am so tired of going to school taking some classes that i will never need in my life like biology...what am i going to need from that class for teaching elementary school...I WONT..that is why i have to take an elementary science class in one of my blocks...lol

so how about i am pretty much the only person in my group of friends who is not seeing someone...do you know how much that sucks? but i figure that i am happy for them, and i have always said that i would much rather everyone else be happy cause that is more important so i am not mad about it. I also figure that if i was ment to be with someone right now i would be, so when it is supposed to happen it will....right?

well that is all i can think of right now so i am going to go work on some of this praxis stuff...or maybe i will start reading a book or something. 

love you all

D

well i am really tired so i will make this short and to the point

most of you reading this will have already heard about this

this is a convo i had at work:

random dude that i am pretty sure was 16ish i will name bob

bob: hey can you make sure no one takes my bike
me: i will try 
(10 minutes later)
(bob walks up to the counter like he is going to order something)
me: what can i get for you?
bob: can i get your number?
me:...no
bob: why?
me:...you dont want my number...trust me..

lol...i was very flattered but like i said i am pretty sure he was only like 16...if he come in tomorrow i will ask his age..and if by some chance he is randomly like 19 or something maybe i will give him my sn..but i highly doubt he is over 17

but that totally made my night and possibly my spring break...

i really hope  he comes in tomorrow just so i can find out his age...

night!
d

 I AM SO STRESSED OUT

i hate being stressed, and i normally am not at all stresesd but this semester is killing me

i am not doing good in most of my classes

i have a ton of work that never seems to get done

my professors just keep adding stuff that we need to do

the one class i was looking forward to is my least favorite class and i wish i didnt have to take it because it requires an insane amount of work

i am too freakin lazy to actually GO and work out..i havent done it all week

my room was a complete disaster..i cleaned it yesterday..which took all day...which means i got no homework done

i have more and more work due and i didnt even know about most of it

i have no time to do things for me and if i do i find out that i SHOULD have been doing something else instead

i feel like i don't have time to breathe anymore

i feel so overwhelmed right now

i want time to jsut stop so i can relax for a few hours or days or weeks

and i cant even look forward to spring break cause i am sure that i will have to work non stop until i leave for ny

and then the sunday i get back will suck cause i will have to drive back from ny then drive back to boone...

...just shoot me now

why do i spend like 10 grand a year to go to a school that takes over my life...or the lack of the life i have

i better go..i am sure i have like 80 things to work on for class

hello everyone

i am fairly bored so i decided to update..especially since i am in one of those random "i really feel like typing" moods

i have had a kind of crappy day

i think my main complaint is that i havent been getting much sleep and when i dont get enough sleep i get either cranky or really hyper and i am stuck on cranky

i think i did awesome on my music quiz today so that went well

i left my phone and my flashdrive at my apartment which makes the day suck

i have to do a presentation in children's world lit which i hope goes well, i think i screwed up the handout a bit so hopefully my professor will understand that it wasnt ALL my fault because my printer cut off some words.

i am also really annoyed with the state of my room right now, it is such a disaster that it is driving me crazy, i want nothing more than to go back to my apartment and clean it (well..i may want sleep more) so after class i am going straight to the apartment, cleaning my room, taking a nap, doing ALL of my homework for tomorrow, working out, packing to go home tomorrow, then getting to bed after praying that the freezing rain causes classes to be cancelled tomorrow, which i doubt will happen because i am just not that lucky. i am sure i will find some time in between some of these things to eat lunch and dinner.

well i guess this is all for now

until next time

d